Dogging and Dead Dreams
Sooo....what the hell have I been doing for all these months?
Last year was a stomach churning, ball busting roller coaster of dreams coming true…
Last year was a stomach churning, ball busting roller coaster of dreams coming true…
On the actual surface of reality, I got a lot of serious shit done. If I had met Katie Price too, then maybe there would have been no more reasons to live. .
After years of talking (shit) the talk, telling people I’m making an all singing, all dancing dead animal musical … I actually did it. My dreams came true too. Not only did it come true, but I smashed it. selling out, winning awards at Vault and Edinburgh Fringe festival, including best new show, pick of the week and finalist for the Sustainable Practice award…
- Without studying music, theatre or even taxidermy…
Ha
Last year was indeed a good year. But after all this work, with mostly every moment being filled with intensity to achieve...I accidentally had a rest and suddenly, everything came to an abrupt halt. Once realised, my dream, well, it died.
Those burning coals under my feet were now replaced...
by dogging.
Everyone knows I love animals. But did you know how much I love dogs?
Well it’s true. And that's what I've been doing.
I used to keep a diary from a very young age. I used to keep all sorts in there. Notes, songs and all the awful things that happen to an 8yr olds.
Mostly I would talk about how much I wanted a dog and hated my mum.
Turns out, my 8yr old self would think I've made it.
I loved dogging, but was starting to give up on life.
The reality is, unless you keep living the dream, it won’t continue. Dreams need hard work. All the time. And I took myself away from the heat to chill with some dogs for a while....I’ve been hiding these last few months, swiping left, struggling with what I want to be doing and how I’m going to do it. Serious down time.
But I’ve decided to try really hard again.
I miss working like a dog. Turns out relaxing isn’t for me. You can't rest on your laurels. Things don’t just come to you, you have to flush them out- Hard, and then harder and then so hard that it is actually real again.
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